My journey
In the beginning there was no re-creation
Since my childhood, I often had the feeling that something wasn't quite right with me. Most adults around me saw me as too slow, too dreamy, or lacking in endurance. My academic performance fluctuated, and I often heard that I was "intelligent but lazy," which posed some challenges.
One day, during my studies at university, I was standing in a classroom with severe back pain. When a colleague saw me in distress, she invited me to join her for a Qi Gong class, which was the first step towards improved well-being and pain relief.
Subsequently, I embarked on training to become a Taiji and Qi Gong instructor, where I discovered the fascinating teachings of the Tao, Yin and Yang, and learned about the body's meridians.
In the process, I also encountered the millennia-old wisdom of Chinese philosophy in the "Book of Changes," the I Ching, with its 64 hexagrams or archetypes.
After two strenuous years as a high school teacher, I moved to Ibiza with my first husband and one-year-old son at the end of 1998, where I was to stay until 2010.
My marriage ended in 2001, leaving me as a single mother—desperate and depressed—on the magical island. The 'good' in the midst of the 'difficult' was that in 2002, I met a new partner with whom I stayed until 2007. During this time, my partner, a close friend of Ra, recognized that Human Design might be the right path for me.
I also took on a small customer service job at Jovian Archive, Ra’s organization, alongside teaching my Taiji and Qi Gong classes. Although I eventually found the role too demanding, it allowed me to make many wonderful connections
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When I re-encountered the 64 hexagrams through Human Design, I learned their significance as "gates" to the 9 centers/chakras in the body chart. This reminded me of "meridians" in traditional Chinese medicine, through which life energy flows to maintain health and balance. The channels of the Human Design body chart also allow energy to flow between the energy centers, but unlike the meridians of TCM, they are part of an individual, unique matrix, knowledge of which serves self-discovery, self-actualization, and as a personal gift for interacting with others.
The magic of the first Reading
In my first Human Design reading in 2004, I discovered details about myself that deeply resonated within me. It was true that as a Projector, I always had the gift of seeing and recognizing others, which naturally led me to roles as a counselor, guide, teacher, or coach.
However, it was the realization that I wasn't predisposed to constantly work that triggered a profound sense of liberation within me.
Learning to trust my inner "G" (Self) authority, to simply be myself and do what brings me joy and over time also success, was transformative.
Waiting for the right invitations and trusting the process was not always easy, but it ultimately paid off.
Meeting Ra Uru Hu & the rest is history
​It was perhaps due to my Personality Sun 46 "Serendipity" that Ra invited me to join his three-year Rave Psychology education in 2007, which opened up new dimensions of our unique human potential.
Additionally, I received invitations to several live "Ibiza Events," where Human Design students and experts from around the world gathered annually from the early 2000s until Ra's passing. Some of these connections remain alive today, giving me a sense of being part of a community of early wave students of the Human Design system.
In the picture here from 2004, Ra is handing me a piece of cake, initiating an important part of my journey towards self-discovery.
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His teachings still "taste" delicious to me today!
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It was an invitation to his home, along with Mary Ann Winiger - between me and Bozena Makota - and Christoph Rabanus (front right), from whom I received my foundational reading. Ra's son, Shiva, is seen in the front.
After my return to Austria, I was certified as a Human Design Analyst in 2011 by Ilse Sendler and Peter Schöber and later, also became certified as a "Living Your Design" Guide and "Rave ABC" and "Rave Cartography" Teacher, as well as a "Family Penta" Practitioner by the International Human Design School (IHDS).
Part of the Human Design Community
Participation in international "Immersions," such as the one in Stockholm in the summer of 2022, has always been a transformative experience for me on all levels. In these gatherings, inspired by Mary Ann Winiger, we playfully explore relationships with others and their energy centers and auras. There's nothing quite like these in-aura encounters! Here, we sense definitions, openness, types, and the "correct" interaction on a cellular level. The opportunity to experience such immersions with experienced Human Design professionals and to offer them myself brings me great joy.
Teacher Training with Nisarg in Korfu
Another wonderful memory is the ABC teacher training in Corfu, October 2023 – a deep experience of the conscious and unconscious aspects of our body graph, the circuits, and the hexagram structure (profiles).
I feel deep gratitude for my 2/4 Reflector teacher, Nisarg B. Nikiel, for allowing me to speak about the "heretical, seductive/explorer" (my 5/1 profile).
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The frequency shift in the room, with each specific topic during the five-day unique shared experience was palpable in this workshop as a deep transmission at the cellular level.
20 years in the Human Design experiment
In all the years of intensive engagement with the Human Design System and the application in my every day life, I have gained invaluable insights and experienced significant changes. As a Projector, I have learned that my knowledge and observations only bear fruit when I am invited to share them. Today, these experiences inform my fulfilling work, which contributes to positively impacting the lives of others and fostering a deeper understanding of oneself and others.
This stands in stark contrast to the stress factors in my previous roles as a high school teacher and adult educator. I now take better care of myself and prioritize more time for regeneration as an self employed Human Design practitioner.
For this life and the opportunity to help others on their journey, I am deeply grateful.